Thursday, 28 January 2010

another year 2010

well here i am again , it seems that i cant just get on with it , i have now lost 71lbs and still have a loads to lose , found out my scales where faulty and weighing me in 3st lighter than i am ,
am renewing my wedding vows this july have a beautiful dress can get it on but not fastened up as yet .....
i have bought a load of excercise dvds so that i dont get bored with doing the same old one lol so here we go again xxx

Sunday, 14 June 2009

i feel so great i could squeak ...

have been back on track for two weeks and have shifted 10lb ,yes 10lbs i am so happy and i could squeak lol
been away on holiday to the new forest and have had a fab time with my kids , my medis have been changed and i feel 'normal ' again ,
have had a chat with my step daughter today and she is becoming a child minder and i a am ringing tommorrow to get on the course then i can stay at home with my kids and be happy , yes i love being a nurse but i need to look after me and my family to .

i am going to be godmother to my little neices on the 19th july and want to have lost at least a stone by then
love and hugs xxxxxx

Tuesday, 19 May 2009

I am back sorry it has been so long

well i got my 50lb certificate on the 5th of feb 2009 and promptly lost it and regained it and lost it again and regained it again and am hanging on to it with the skin of my teeth .....

i have been off line for a while as i have servere depression to the extent that i was going to end it , i am back on my medications and i feel better not complete but better . i am seeing a councillor and it is helping i have to learn to talk and not keep secrets ,i am so good at secrets i keep things bottled up untill i have burst so here goes i am going to share this is thearpy as you say
1) i was sexual assulted at the age of 10
2) i was raped twice as a student nurse , sodamised once
3) i have abused alchol and have a problem with it
4) i have abused drugs both prescribed and ileagal
5)i binge eat , comfort eat , and starve myself
6) i self harm

i have made the decision to stop drinking and i could kill one now ,i am back at weight watchers and i am going to use this as a sounding off board

my hubby who is 20 yrs older than me had a stroke on easter sunday and has had 2 mini strokes since and i am so scared he is going to die and leave me .

tiny baby steps and everthing will go forward may be slow but will be forward
thanks and sorry didnt mean to offend or upset

Monday, 2 February 2009

snow snow and more snow

snow snow and more snow ,cant get the computer to do what i want it todo cant get a race for life button on here and i want one
have been cooking for england am going to have to try and get to work tonite but the weather is horriable and if i get stuck there i wont be happy .
weightwatchers is hard work am trying to be good but am just stressing out again and again am going to get there only need 1lb and i have my 50lb certificate
wish me luck and send me positive vibes please
Tiffany aka madmumtj

Tuesday, 27 January 2009

i am confused dot com

what happened i checked my BMI on WW and it has dropped to 40 that is from 48 which is fab but i have lost 4 points aday to yesterday i was allowed 30 now i am allowed 26 that is 4 points that is a creme egg and an orange ......can i cope
no gradual drop "just bang and the points were gone"
i am on nites hence the ungodly hour but have been so good staying within my points . have had a fab supper 2 wholemeal rolls filled with cottage cheese and chunky diced cuecumber,celery and tomatoes and a ton of freshly ground black pepper really yummy and i have my 0 point soup for later and i have another orange as well "yummy yummy for my shrinking tummy"
regarding my dad spoke to my mum didnt tell her he had rung me but asked how he was and she said that he was acting strange all peaceful and nice!!! i understand that my dad is dying, and with all my strengh i am not going to comfort eat , he is pround that i am losing weight and my kids are too. going over to see them this weekend with the kids.
any how have to go do some work now
love and hugs tiffany xx


i have just had the worst phone call ever, my dad rang me to tell me .....................
sorry this is so hard he said that he didn't have much longer and that he had made my mum go to bingo cause she has to keep her friends as she will need them when he has died, he has terminal cancer ,has had a stroke and has an inoperable aortic aneurysm . he wanted me to know he was proud of me and my kids and we made him happy. he said i wasnt to tell my mum he had phoned ,

Saturday, 24 January 2009

i am i will i can

my mates on line are doing the race for life , so in for a penny in for a pound i am too so on the 5 th of july 2009 at temple newsom i am going to run 5k(3 miles), i have bought myself the book running made easy and have started my journey to a fitter me , so if you hear reports of earth quakes in north Yorkshire you know i am out training hehehe. my pack arrived yesterday and hubby greeted me with the fact i was stupid and would kill myself wrong answer i will train and i will do this and i will smile as if i am loving every moment even if dying on the inside , i managed a 5 mile walk yesterday and feel OK this morning so here we come. i am now known as the "purple dash" as i will be wearing purple and a purple tutu i may not dash but i will finish. i am back on the wagon and plan to stay there .......
love for now Tiffany
PS. only need 3.5lb for my 50lb certificate back